it's not that i don't want to do it, i can't.

but physically my body does not want to do it, my body physically can't do it. therefore i can't. i can say i want to do it, but how can i want something which i haven't felt and will never feel. it is only the cognition of an imaginary feeling that is conceived through my past experience, but not the actual thing. if i never have had the actual thing, i can never want the actual thing.