"NO ONE HAS THE ABILITY TO CONTROL ME, ONLY I HAVE THE ABILITY TO CONTROL ME. SAYING OTHERWISE WOULD BE AGAINST THE LAWS OF SCIENCE AND AGAINST THE RIGHTS INHERENT TO ME AS A HUMAN BEING. IF I HAPPEN TO FIND OUT THAT A FORCE IS CONTROLLING ME, THEN I HAVE THE RIGHT TO STOP THEM BY DOING EVERYTHING WITHIN MY POWER. I ALSO HAVE THE RIGHT TO REMAIN APATHETIC TO THAT FORCE. IN DOING EITHER ACTION I KNOW AT ALL TIMES THAT IT IS MY CHOICE. IF I CHOOSE TO PARTICIPATE IN ANY ACTION, LEGAL OR ILLEGAL BY THE CONSTITUTION OF THE UNITED STATES, I KNOW AT ALL TIMES THAT IT IS MY CHOICE AND THAT ALMOST ALL CHOICES LEAD TO CONSEQUENCES. I AM FULLY AWARE OF MY ULTIMATE POWER OVER MYSELF. I AM FULLY AWARE THAT I HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE MY LIFE IF NEED IT BE. I AM FULLY AWARE THAT THERE MIGHT BE INFORMATION OR 'STUFF' OUT THERE THAT COULD CHANGE A SITUATION IN MY LIFE AND THAT MY SITUATION IN LIFE WILL NOT CHANGE UNLESS I DO EVERYTHING WITHIN MY POWER TO SEEK THIS INFORMATION AND FIND IT. IF I CHOOSE TO DO NOTHING, THEN I AM THE ONLY PERSON CULPABLE FOR NO GAINS."

*'good' is a term used to describe what is pleasing to someone, i.e. what someone prefers

do you sometimes feel like shit...? sometimes i do. that's when... wait a second.

PEOPLE ARE IN CONTROL OF HOW THEY FEEL...?!

this information is revolutionary. suppose i felt like shit. i could tap into my subconscious and do the actions required to change the way i feel to make myself feel the way i want to feel.

(tbc)

have to keep going, no matter what gets in the way. yep, that's pretty much it. i WILL FINISH THIS.

you could build your own self fulfilling prophesy. sometimes they can be for good purposes. i find that posting my progress online is a way of helping me reach my goals, cause then i can be like, "WOA. i did that. i can do better."

some adults act like fucking children. i said, NO you can NOT use my milk. if you don't like it go out and fucking buy some. god damn. the nearest walgreens is right down the road. would you like me to give you directions...? and if you touch me one more time because you get angry i'm gonna fucking give you what you should have got the first two times. YOU'RE A FUCKING ADULT. quit acting a like a two year old who can throw tantrums and do whatever he wants to people around him without getting consequences. and you call yourself an activist...? this is not how activists should act. especially at your age. man, show some respect for yourself and people around you. and DON'T FUCKING TOUCH ME AGAIN. or else i'll fucking whop you in the face. and i know you would lose in a fight against me. i think you're spoiled. too spoiled. you think you can go around touching people whenever you choose. don't do it again. that's all i'm saying...

in the words of obi wan kenobi...

if you ever feel like shit about yourself, like you're nothing, just remember, pain is a temporary death. let "them" 'strike you down.' imperfection is a double edged sword. it may kill you to come to terms with it, but you will be reborn again to be awesomely stronger than you ever have been. that's something to look forward to. in the words of obi wan kenobi...

"You're a sinner. So accept that. We have to move on with life. This is the only life we have..."

without intelligence, there is no meaning. without meaning, there is no sin. without sin, there is no death. we existed part of the Master Idea before we knew it. and when we knew it, we grew apart from it. any thing we don't know doesn't exist. we cannot die from something that doesn't exist. but since, in any circumstance, the scope of our intelligence goes on to infiniti, at least within our powers, everything exists within any possibility. once you see, you will never have not seen again. death lives.

Sin

sin is stark and grotesque. like a cancerous sprawling worm with millions of legs protruding into your body. often glorified in movies, scientifically, it is no trivial or naive matter. once you are welcomed into that world, there is no turning back... so ponder and relish the simple things in life that bring you joy. in any intricate moment they can be overwritten. but it's up to you to make that choice. if you choose it, "they" will welcome you, but will you feel welcomed... or outcast....?

poster: welcome to the world of sin. you wanted it, now you have it.

being an adult is serial

god, i hate worrying. sometimes i can't stop myself from doing it. it just makes me sad, ya know...? nothing can be perfect. no matter how hard we try, nothing can be perfect. can i at least relax from worry for a while...? god damn. being an adult is serial