like i said. the difference between good and evil is hope.

i lost so much muscle mass that yesterday i went to the gym for the first time since the "accident" and i could hardly hit 3s. plus i was short of breath. i'm gonna have to get used to these lungs and start building my muscle back up. If i had $3000 i would pay a professional trainer to help me to where i was lifting back up to 205 again. but even further than that. it's gonna take a long time if i don't have a plan. i need a plan, i need help. but i have limited Power

The difference between a Dick and a True Dick

based on people's reactions, i'm confused as to whether i'm a true dick or a nice person (weak). see, nice people everyone likes but they have nothing to offer the conversation. true dicks are different than regular dicks because regular dicks have some likeability whereas true dicks piss everybody off. true dicks are people like Vincent Van Gogh, ... .... i can't think of any others. true dicks might not have any friends but they keep living their life as if it were normal. oh yes! Hitler was a true dick as well. regular dicks think they're so smug. they like to think they are true dicks, but they're not. if they have friends they are not true dicks. only a true dick would sacrifice friendship for his status (consciously or subconsciously, no difference).

now i gotta put all this shit back together

Jesus said, 'Accept Everyone.'

why do Christians think being gay is an "abomination"...? God is not a person. God never said that. Jesus never said that either. I think SOME PEOPLE like to HATE. Then the question is, "Why do you want to go to war with people you are threatened by?" You say you have nothing to fear and that you are doing God's work. Well if you are not afraid of them, why are you so adamant about their destruction? Do you think they will corrupt your mind? If you do, your mind has already been 'corrupted' because only a corrupt mind would know what corrupt feels like. What am I saying...? ... I don't know, God never said that because God isn't human. You are, and you are not living as Jesus lived. Jesus said, 'Accept Everyone.' What don't you get about that...? You are so afraid that you will be 'corrupted' just like 'everybody else'. well let me tell you, even if everybody else became 'corrupted' you still have the choice to be 'uncorrupted' all by yourself if you wanted to, NOBODY will stop you. Now I've gotten to your basic, primal fear. You should understand now why you cannot stand sinners. It's because part of you is a sinner as well. So you should accept yourself for that. Then you'll be able to accept 'everyone else.'

Just a thought on One God over all Religions, The Master Idea

The Muslims had The Mount before the Jews. Also I read somewhere, correct me if I am wrong, but Muslims occupied the territory of Israel and Palestine before Israel ever was a political idea. It is not that surprising to me to know that there are Jewish Fundamentalists out there, just like there are Islamic Fundamentalists. What is disturbing is that they both do irrational things in the name of 'God', The God that I keep telling everybody that is not intelligent, non-personifiable, physical, The Master Idea that is and exists in the NOW. The Master Idea == Muslim God == Christian God == Jewish God == Atheist's Science.

Illumination is excluded, but could be included (pretty much any religion could be included), because they believe that people are God, when in fact, people are part of the physical God that exists in the NOW. We are part of it, The Master Idea broadcasts it's Ideas through matter. It's all around us.

this note is a fragment. gotta go do something....

yay. laptop. damn, i gotta go to bed at 9.